@zaideaben's post on Artfol
hello friends! I’m sorry I’ve been absent. I wanted to share something important, cause I find myself discouraged often and would like to cleanly explain myself here.
I have both narcolepsy and N24. this means my brain destroyed the parts of itself that control sleep and my body functions every day as if I haven’t slept in 72 hours.
these disorders didn’t fully develop til 2018, which is very frustrating, because I was an extremely ambitious kid before then. adapting to my new reality has been really hard and heartbreaking and I am repeatedly having to shake old expectations of my abilities.
I’m sorry if I make promises with timelines I can’t fulfill. I’m sorry if I have ever made you feel dismissed or forgotten. I’m getting better at learning my new limits, but it’s still very hard to relearn.
that said, I am still working on the projects I have promised. It’s just been hard to recover after some setbacks the past few months. after these are complete, I may have to take a break from art until I can afford medical help.
I really love this community on artfol. it’s been so warm and delightful to be a part of and I’m sad to not be able to engage with y’all as much as I’d like to. I hope I can more in the future, but please know for now that I am cheering y’all on from the sidelines. :’)
Please don’t feel like you have to respond all serious or anything! I know this is a heavy and long read, but I promise I’m okay. I just really felt like I needed to lay all this out so I can stop feeling like I’m leaving people in the dark.
I hope all y’all are well; please feel free to share something fun that’s been going on in your life, if you like! Or even something hard you’re going through and wish more people knew so they could understand you better. I wanna hear about y’all!Feb 3, 2023
I have both narcolepsy and N24. this means my brain destroyed the parts of itself that control sleep and my body functions every day as if I haven’t slept in 72 hours.
these disorders didn’t fully develop til 2018, which is very frustrating, because I was an extremely ambitious kid before then. adapting to my new reality has been really hard and heartbreaking and I am repeatedly having to shake old expectations of my abilities.
I’m sorry if I make promises with timelines I can’t fulfill. I’m sorry if I have ever made you feel dismissed or forgotten. I’m getting better at learning my new limits, but it’s still very hard to relearn.
that said, I am still working on the projects I have promised. It’s just been hard to recover after some setbacks the past few months. after these are complete, I may have to take a break from art until I can afford medical help.
I really love this community on artfol. it’s been so warm and delightful to be a part of and I’m sad to not be able to engage with y’all as much as I’d like to. I hope I can more in the future, but please know for now that I am cheering y’all on from the sidelines. :’)
Please don’t feel like you have to respond all serious or anything! I know this is a heavy and long read, but I promise I’m okay. I just really felt like I needed to lay all this out so I can stop feeling like I’m leaving people in the dark.
I hope all y’all are well; please feel free to share something fun that’s been going on in your life, if you like! Or even something hard you’re going through and wish more people knew so they could understand you better. I wanna hear about y’all!Feb 3, 2023
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Ahh nothing to be sorry for tbh! I personally have never gotten negative feelings whenever doing trades etc, just pure joy whenever I do interact with you! And honestly I am quite happy that you’re prioritising getting medical help too, usually artists tend to push themselves too hard and ignoring their health so glad you don’t do that!
I’ll just have to draw vin in your place though
I’ll just have to draw vin in your place though
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There is absolutely no need to apologize. Take care of yourself and do not stress yourself!
And I can't think of anything particular fun that's been going on. But I can offer cute! I have a little sister that us much younger than me (literally 14 years age gap) and she loves to draw just like me. She has gifted a lot of art of hers to me, our mother and our brothers
And I can't think of anything particular fun that's been going on. But I can offer cute! I have a little sister that us much younger than me (literally 14 years age gap) and she loves to draw just like me. She has gifted a lot of art of hers to me, our mother and our brothers
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I can't imagine how frustrating that must be!! I wish you luck in this adjustment journey. And something fun hmm Nothing super exciting in my life, but nothing bad has happened either so I'd say that's good!
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