@hiyina's post on Artfol
I just need somewhere to vent and I don't want to lose what few followers I have on Twitter or risk an irl seeing this
I've just been feeling super terrible the past week, crying day and night about just a variety of things, about not being able to get prescription contacts in and out of my eyes, feeling like art is hopeless, letting my younger self down, being fine with being a woman but constantly tormented by comments people feel so comfortable saying to women but would never say to a man, feeling sub-human and that none of this is even real and feeling so lonely with nobody to talk to but that's mostly my fault being so scared to reach out and being terrible at conversation. My sleep schedule is fucked and when I try to sleep at normal times I just can't. I've always been fine with being a woman but I've never been ok with all the things people feel comfortable saying to me because I'm a woman and I just don't know, most of this probably doesn't make sense but I just want to try to feel better in any way I can, I don't know if this is against artfol's tos but if it is I won't be upset it gets taken downJun 16, 2024
I've just been feeling super terrible the past week, crying day and night about just a variety of things, about not being able to get prescription contacts in and out of my eyes, feeling like art is hopeless, letting my younger self down, being fine with being a woman but constantly tormented by comments people feel so comfortable saying to women but would never say to a man, feeling sub-human and that none of this is even real and feeling so lonely with nobody to talk to but that's mostly my fault being so scared to reach out and being terrible at conversation. My sleep schedule is fucked and when I try to sleep at normal times I just can't. I've always been fine with being a woman but I've never been ok with all the things people feel comfortable saying to me because I'm a woman and I just don't know, most of this probably doesn't make sense but I just want to try to feel better in any way I can, I don't know if this is against artfol's tos but if it is I won't be upset it gets taken downJun 16, 2024
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1. I totally feel you on the contacts thing. I just gave up cuz I have eyelashes that are too long 
. I legit felt like cutting them off
2. I may not be a woman but as a trans man I get where you’re coming from 1000% Like we know who we are and are confident in that but it’s absolutely soul crushing to hear these awful things people will say just to make themselves feel better. I don’t have much of a solution cuz I still really struggle with the self hate thing, and my ocd loves to pick at that wound.
But it may help to remember that a lot of the people saying these awful shitty things are kinda bitter online losers. Ik it’s hard cuz of confirmation bias but if it’s damaging your mental health maybe take a break from social media & try to find some youtubers or something that spread a positive message. Don’t let human garbage drag you down to your level
. I legit felt like cutting them off 2. I may not be a woman but as a trans man I get where you’re coming from 1000% Like we know who we are and are confident in that but it’s absolutely soul crushing to hear these awful things people will say just to make themselves feel better. I don’t have much of a solution cuz I still really struggle with the self hate thing, and my ocd loves to pick at that wound.
But it may help to remember that a lot of the people saying these awful shitty things are kinda bitter online losers. Ik it’s hard cuz of confirmation bias but if it’s damaging your mental health maybe take a break from social media & try to find some youtubers or something that spread a positive message. Don’t let human garbage drag you down to your level
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First, as a fellow woman I totally understand how your feeling and it makes perfect sense what your saying. Secondly I’m sending you good vibes and prayers, life is really hard sometimes and it can really suck. Give yourself some grace and space to breathe, you’ll get through this, just try to take it one moment at a time.
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