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Tw vent
Idk if I'll erase this post later or not but here it goes..
I'm feeling mentally unwell like fr. I was planning to do at least 12 artworks and few challenges this year but I think it won't be possible, at least not right now. So no big arts for now, maybe I'll sketch something or maybe not... whatever...
I wanted to do art trades but with such state of mind I don't think it'll be possible as well... Maybe next time.. I don't know. I really don't know..
The stuff happening around me and in my head make me feel so damn heavy. I'm mess of human being, a shadow of myself. I want everything to be fine, I'm doing my best to feel fine but things get worse. I became "plant", I do nothing most of the time, I'm being unproductive alot. I forget quickly, I wander around few times before doing something particular. My entire body hurts from overhelming stress and anxiety. Derealisation hits often, my "illness" became stronger this year.
My will to do art fades faster than I thought and it's not the entire fault of ai generators. It's fault of this intense negative atmosphere in the house and my "illness". I have huge artblock, I find no motivation to live, let alone make damn art. Maybe, if things will calm down I'll feel better and become more active.. For now I think I need proper hiatus from everything, from everyone and focus on my mental health more. It'll be tough though with such negativity surrounding me It'll be tough as hell... I'm so sorry everyone.
I just feel that all my problems and stuff happening in EU burden me alot. I'm doing my best to stay tough to all of this but sometimes the people surrounding me at home have such doomsday views, behave so toxic to me and each other that it overhelms me and I'm feeling very pessimistic because of them. I tend to absorb other peoples emotions and feelings.. it sucks alot to be empath.
Anyway... It's not end yet.. Maybe things in the future will get better for my case. I'm just... Really, really tired right now.
I hope you understand. Until next time, bye..Feb 28, 2024
Idk if I'll erase this post later or not but here it goes..
I'm feeling mentally unwell like fr. I was planning to do at least 12 artworks and few challenges this year but I think it won't be possible, at least not right now. So no big arts for now, maybe I'll sketch something or maybe not... whatever...
I wanted to do art trades but with such state of mind I don't think it'll be possible as well... Maybe next time.. I don't know. I really don't know..
The stuff happening around me and in my head make me feel so damn heavy. I'm mess of human being, a shadow of myself. I want everything to be fine, I'm doing my best to feel fine but things get worse. I became "plant", I do nothing most of the time, I'm being unproductive alot. I forget quickly, I wander around few times before doing something particular. My entire body hurts from overhelming stress and anxiety. Derealisation hits often, my "illness" became stronger this year.
My will to do art fades faster than I thought and it's not the entire fault of ai generators. It's fault of this intense negative atmosphere in the house and my "illness". I have huge artblock, I find no motivation to live, let alone make damn art. Maybe, if things will calm down I'll feel better and become more active.. For now I think I need proper hiatus from everything, from everyone and focus on my mental health more. It'll be tough though with such negativity surrounding me It'll be tough as hell... I'm so sorry everyone.
I just feel that all my problems and stuff happening in EU burden me alot. I'm doing my best to stay tough to all of this but sometimes the people surrounding me at home have such doomsday views, behave so toxic to me and each other that it overhelms me and I'm feeling very pessimistic because of them. I tend to absorb other peoples emotions and feelings.. it sucks alot to be empath.
Anyway... It's not end yet.. Maybe things in the future will get better for my case. I'm just... Really, really tired right now.
I hope you understand. Until next time, bye..Feb 28, 2024
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