@BluezLilCorner's post on Artfol
He/Them and Amateur Artist. I have an unhealthy obsession with Chase Atlantic. I'm the Author and Artist of Forbidden Hearts.TW: venting, SH, Abuse, suicide, and trauma
WHY THE FUCK DO I WANT MY MOM AND DAD TO ABUSE ME?! WHY DO I WANT TO HURT SO BAD?! I'M SO FUCKING SCARED!! I HAVE THE CHOICE TO LEAVE MY FAMILY WHO DOESN'T EVEN LIKE ME BUT I DON'T WANT TO. I WANT TO LEAVE BUT THEY'VE ALL I'VE KNOWN!! EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT!! I MADE MOM AND I MADE DAD LEAVE!! I MAKE EVERYONE AROUND ME UNCOMFORTABLE!! I CAN'T TALK FOR 5 SECONDS AND GET TOLD SHUT UP!! I WANT TO KILL MYSELF!! WILL MOM DISOWN ME IF SHE CAN'T PAST COLLAGE!! WHY CAN'T I GO TO THE FOREST AND JUST END IT?! I WANT TO SNUGGLE ALL THE OLD TEDDY'S MOM GOT ME AND DIE SLOWING!! WHY DO I CRY SO MUCH JUST SO SOMEONE WILL HUG ME?! WHY DO I HAVE TO SMILE WHEN I'M MY FRIENDS WHO I DON'T KNOW EVEN LIKE ME?! WHY AM I HERE?! I WANT TO DIE! I WANT TO DIE!! I WANT TO DIE!!Jan 24, 2025
WHY THE FUCK DO I WANT MY MOM AND DAD TO ABUSE ME?! WHY DO I WANT TO HURT SO BAD?! I'M SO FUCKING SCARED!! I HAVE THE CHOICE TO LEAVE MY FAMILY WHO DOESN'T EVEN LIKE ME BUT I DON'T WANT TO. I WANT TO LEAVE BUT THEY'VE ALL I'VE KNOWN!! EVERYTHING IS MY FAULT!! I MADE MOM AND I MADE DAD LEAVE!! I MAKE EVERYONE AROUND ME UNCOMFORTABLE!! I CAN'T TALK FOR 5 SECONDS AND GET TOLD SHUT UP!! I WANT TO KILL MYSELF!! WILL MOM DISOWN ME IF SHE CAN'T PAST COLLAGE!! WHY CAN'T I GO TO THE FOREST AND JUST END IT?! I WANT TO SNUGGLE ALL THE OLD TEDDY'S MOM GOT ME AND DIE SLOWING!! WHY DO I CRY SO MUCH JUST SO SOMEONE WILL HUG ME?! WHY DO I HAVE TO SMILE WHEN I'M MY FRIENDS WHO I DON'T KNOW EVEN LIKE ME?! WHY AM I HERE?! I WANT TO DIE! I WANT TO DIE!! I WANT TO DIE!!Jan 24, 2025
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I’ve been there- in fact I’m there now. But if you ever wanna talk, I’m here for you, and I understand <3
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You need a plan for when this happens, possibly discussed with a professional. I remember vent art and writing to vent. 
It's one thing to do. There are so many light filled paths to take from here.
It's one thing to do. There are so many light filled paths to take from here.•
I've been there before... I'm incredibly sorry you have been dealing with such things. I hope I'm not intruding on your vent post by sending some positive vibes your way. Your feelings are completely valid! The world can be cruel, but that doesn't mean you should let it consume you! I know you can get through this. I hope you'll be alright, young lad.
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