Nsfw vent
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TW; Hypersexuality, disgusting topics, mentions of r4pe, p0rn/s3x, nsfw topic in general.️Oh my god, j hate being hypersexual, I wasn't ever r4ped at a young age or touched, but I was VERY exposed to adult media when I was a kid. My parents didn't monitor what i watched, which leads to me watching p0rn, kissing etc.
I was turned on by all that stuff, whenever I'd be alone I'd turn on the TV to watch people kissing, or those music videos with hot chick's in them. I remember having online sex in a rip off minefpcraft game as well when I was about.. 9.
The thing about hypersexuality is.. I always imagine uncontrollable fantasies about me ajd other people, or I'd make up scenarios of me being touched by the person next to me, it makes me feel horny and disgusted.. I've had these scenarios with friends and family, which is upsetting. I hate myself for these thoughts but I cant control it, and I don't have a way to cope.
I'm only 13 and going through this. I wish it woukd stop, it hurts, I'm oversexualizing myself everyday. I've been doing thag since I was a kid, before 2017.
My mom liked to record videos of me and my brother having fun, and we were un a small bath. I was wearing a 1 piece powerpuff girls swimsuit, and I was just dancing in a weird sexuak way as a way to appear 'hot'
I wish I could stop being like this, and my seatmate isnt helping. She's really dirty minded so whenever I say anything for example
"Hey (seatmate) do u need my jacket?? U look cold and could use some warmth"
"Nah, I just need your tits to keep me warm, galz."
Oh. This has happened before more than once. I'm uncomfortable, but I also love when she does that, it makes me feel horny and good inside, my stomach twists and i have butterflies, but I dont have a crush on her. It's arousingly painful. I hate this feeling. I hate being exposed to the media at a young age. My mom is to blame for letting letting watch yt without supervision. I want 2 end myself.
Masturbatng doesn't help, I've tried multiple times this year and possibly 5 years ago too. I tried masturbstint using my plushes hand, or my finger recently it never worked. I never felt pleased enough.
Help.Jan 15, 2024
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I'm so sorry :[ I have pretty much the same thing going on
I was exposed to sexual stuff online when I was maybe 6, because my parents gave me a phone . Granted it was because I had to walk to school and they wanted me to be able to call in case something happened (because what kind of asshole school makes a 6 year old walk Knowing there's pedophiles in the area?) but of course I used it for other stuff. I would have sex/fetish rp on Roblox (though that guy did groom me into it I was not into it at first ) and look at nsfw fanarts online and I think I did the same thing on that same Minecraft Rip off game you mentioned, I remember doing that. it was pretty much any shitty game that had a chat.
I'm sure I'm hypersexual too (I can't get diagnosed) and it's really difficult. When I was younger, I used to draw nsfw to cope with it because my counselor had suggested that. it worked for a while but I think I haven't drawn it since freshman year. even now, I try jerking off too and it doesn't do shit really. multiple times a day, almost daily but sometimes I don't ,so weekly.
I usually just have to go to bed or something to stop it. I can talk to my boyfriend when I'm horny bc we've started being more open about that but even then I notice I've got it much worse
I don't know how to help it because I still need to figure out that. But you are not alone in this and I hope you'll feel better X[ hypersexuality sucks
I was exposed to sexual stuff online when I was maybe 6, because my parents gave me a phone . Granted it was because I had to walk to school and they wanted me to be able to call in case something happened (because what kind of asshole school makes a 6 year old walk Knowing there's pedophiles in the area?) but of course I used it for other stuff. I would have sex/fetish rp on Roblox (though that guy did groom me into it I was not into it at first ) and look at nsfw fanarts online and I think I did the same thing on that same Minecraft Rip off game you mentioned, I remember doing that. it was pretty much any shitty game that had a chat.
I'm sure I'm hypersexual too (I can't get diagnosed) and it's really difficult. When I was younger, I used to draw nsfw to cope with it because my counselor had suggested that. it worked for a while but I think I haven't drawn it since freshman year. even now, I try jerking off too and it doesn't do shit really. multiple times a day, almost daily but sometimes I don't ,so weekly.
I usually just have to go to bed or something to stop it. I can talk to my boyfriend when I'm horny bc we've started being more open about that but even then I notice I've got it much worse
I don't know how to help it because I still need to figure out that. But you are not alone in this and I hope you'll feel better X[ hypersexuality sucks
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