@insect0id_freakaz0id's post on Artfol
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• comms always openalso warning for uhh brief sh mentioning
I don't really make new years resolutions
I hate making goals for myself because I often never meet them or get sidetracked extremely easy (I was up cleaning my room until 5 AM because I got sidetracked and reorganized and tested all of my art supplies)
but I've made one promise this year. that I can't hurt myself again
I was over a year clean, a year and a few months I think (2-3 maybe) until September of this year. I think I started feeling depressed again around september and I was having some stress at school with people and it was just too much and I ended up hurting myself again
I stopped for a while and then ended up hurting myself the first of this month (December still for me) because of similar issues with people at school
I can't keep hurting myself. I have to get to a year clean again. and from them, I've got to get a year and a half, and I can't do it again. I've done it 6 times and that really seems like too much . my boyfriend is worried for me
I'm worried it's going to be really difficultDec 31, 2023
I don't really make new years resolutions
I hate making goals for myself because I often never meet them or get sidetracked extremely easy (I was up cleaning my room until 5 AM because I got sidetracked and reorganized and tested all of my art supplies)
but I've made one promise this year. that I can't hurt myself again
I was over a year clean, a year and a few months I think (2-3 maybe) until September of this year. I think I started feeling depressed again around september and I was having some stress at school with people and it was just too much and I ended up hurting myself again
I stopped for a while and then ended up hurting myself the first of this month (December still for me) because of similar issues with people at school
I can't keep hurting myself. I have to get to a year clean again. and from them, I've got to get a year and a half, and I can't do it again. I've done it 6 times and that really seems like too much . my boyfriend is worried for me
I'm worried it's going to be really difficultDec 31, 2023
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hey, good luck and I hope you make it far! It’s a really hard thing to do but I believe you can make it through :)
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•You did it for over a year before, you can do it again! Your previous efforts aren't cancelled by this, take care and wish you luck 
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•i believe you can, im wishing you the best and support you! even if it'll be hard you can do it!! i've been through sh too, and still had the urge sometimes, but i've been keeping it just on paper(drawing my frustation out). so keep fighting! im here for u bro
(im sorry if theres anything i've said that sounds wrong, im not very good with words :"/
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(im sorry if theres anything i've said that sounds wrong, im not very good with words :"/
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•it kinda sucks because I have people tell me it's ok to relapse because it's normal / progress isn't linear but if I come to them and confess wanting to relapse again or that I have done it or even mentioning a past time I did it or even doing something "so I don't relapse" it's "PLEASE DON'T DO IT!!!! STOP!!!!!!!!!!" and "I'M GOING TO CALL SOMEONE IF YOU DO IT ONE MORE TIME" like what happened to it's ok to slip up and progress isn't linear
I get that it makes people worry for me but I don't really enjoy doing it I'm just hoping one of these times it'll make me feel better like it does for other people or something
I get that it makes people worry for me but I don't really enjoy doing it I'm just hoping one of these times it'll make me feel better like it does for other people or something•
•Yeah, it is. As someone who knows how you feel, it'll be hard. But not impossible. You CAN do it.
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