@CoffeeNCream's post on Artfol
Just a vent~
I used to be a very hateful person, and it sickens me.
I grew up homeschooled, very sheltered, in a small town, and my only chance to make friends was at church. I understand that I was only a kid listening to my parents but it still hurts me inside.
It just feels icky, knowing I was one of those people with so much hate in their heart, I bite my tongue at the things I said behind closed doors and wish I woulda never said such things. I feel disgusted at myself at times, I have to remember that that was in the past and the fact that I am disgusted in those thoughts and feelings show that I am a different person now.
In my teens I had some self reflection, and started to question what my family and religion had fed me. I started to make friends with those I was told not to and stopped hating others different from me, I moved away and went nc with my fam. My family is still that hateful type and I wonder why I came out differently, why am I the only one? Out of 9 kids why am I the only one? If I didn't have that self reflection would I have turned out like them?Sep 13, 2023
I used to be a very hateful person, and it sickens me.
I grew up homeschooled, very sheltered, in a small town, and my only chance to make friends was at church. I understand that I was only a kid listening to my parents but it still hurts me inside.
It just feels icky, knowing I was one of those people with so much hate in their heart, I bite my tongue at the things I said behind closed doors and wish I woulda never said such things. I feel disgusted at myself at times, I have to remember that that was in the past and the fact that I am disgusted in those thoughts and feelings show that I am a different person now.
In my teens I had some self reflection, and started to question what my family and religion had fed me. I started to make friends with those I was told not to and stopped hating others different from me, I moved away and went nc with my fam. My family is still that hateful type and I wonder why I came out differently, why am I the only one? Out of 9 kids why am I the only one? If I didn't have that self reflection would I have turned out like them?Sep 13, 2023
#vent
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