@hairymoths's post on Artfol
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AAAAAAA i know i said i was gonna stop w the venting but just this last time--
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Its just so fucking overwhelming to know no one will ever be reliable, and then they remind you if it, they verbally tell you they don't want you to be a weight on their lives, and i know they're individual human beings but theyre also my fucking parents, weren't they supposed to teach me half the shit i learned from strangers and myself???? They never taught me anything and now i can't rely on the people that used to help me because they aren't here anymore and when i try to rely in my parents they just tell me to fuck off?? I know im being childish and dependable and i need to leqrn to do things by myself but it's still frustrating, im dumb as shit and also the only wall i can hold on to like what the fuck am i supposed to do just drown?? It feels like i fucking should i cant keep relying on myself or others or anything apparentlyApr 13, 2023
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Its just so fucking overwhelming to know no one will ever be reliable, and then they remind you if it, they verbally tell you they don't want you to be a weight on their lives, and i know they're individual human beings but theyre also my fucking parents, weren't they supposed to teach me half the shit i learned from strangers and myself???? They never taught me anything and now i can't rely on the people that used to help me because they aren't here anymore and when i try to rely in my parents they just tell me to fuck off?? I know im being childish and dependable and i need to leqrn to do things by myself but it's still frustrating, im dumb as shit and also the only wall i can hold on to like what the fuck am i supposed to do just drown?? It feels like i fucking should i cant keep relying on myself or others or anything apparentlyApr 13, 2023
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I also don't know anymore if I'm actually depressed and self destructive or just annoying and lazy because i keeo avoiding important things just to make myself feel worse and no ove ever notices but when they do they reqct like how anyone would react to a lazy person,, god i wish i were fucking dead i really am just a fucking weight on everyone why can't i just be useful or meaningful or whqtever to make me be perceived as a human being
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