scrap pagesI hate them so much, so much cringe paranoya and artblock
sorry for the bad lightning, those are ugly anyways, also it's better to zoom into each page because it's hard to make out what it is in this format thing
aaaaand a small rant about those pages:
those are all from the end of 2021, back when I hated my art the most. 2021 was a weird (in a bad way
) year for my art.
I would draw things I didn't really like or enjoy drawing (maybe because I wated to seem cool in front of myself but in the end I was just ignoring what I really liked), I think the only reason I kept drawing was because art was sth I used to enjoy and be good at and I wanted to get this joy back so I kept drawing hoping it'd be fun or sth, idk even.
It got even worse around September when I had to go to a new school and it made me very stressed and in order to be 'cool' so I could make friends I ignored myself even more and kept drawing things that seemed that they'd be liked by people (not like I was showing them to anyone tho).
I just continued drawing because it had(?) used to be my hobby and I'd always loved it. At some point I'd get flusrtated with every drawing and trying to draw the same thing over to make sure I hadnt lost the ability to draw.
and in 2022 I kinda went fuck this shit mode and cared a bit less (when it had got to the point that I even listened to indie pop to be 'cool' lol (it's good but not entirely my type of music) even tho I kept this to myself)
but it also was because some other factors,
tbh I have no idea what happended and why exactly but now I enjoy my art and feel way better now
(the whole problem was more than that but idk how to explain it, it's confusing)
OK IF YOU'VE READ IT WHOLE THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
IT WAS KINDA RANDOM, I CRINED AND MY PHONE IS LAGGY NOWJun 9, 2022
sorry for the bad lightning, those are ugly anyways, also it's better to zoom into each page because it's hard to make out what it is in this format thingaaaaand a small rant about those pages:
those are all from the end of 2021, back when I hated my art the most. 2021 was a weird (in a bad way
) year for my art.I would draw things I didn't really like or enjoy drawing (maybe because I wated to seem cool in front of myself but in the end I was just ignoring what I really liked), I think the only reason I kept drawing was because art was sth I used to enjoy and be good at and I wanted to get this joy back so I kept drawing hoping it'd be fun or sth, idk even.
It got even worse around September when I had to go to a new school and it made me very stressed and in order to be 'cool' so I could make friends I ignored myself even more and kept drawing things that seemed that they'd be liked by people (not like I was showing them to anyone tho).
I just continued drawing because it had(?) used to be my hobby and I'd always loved it. At some point I'd get flusrtated with every drawing and trying to draw the same thing over to make sure I hadnt lost the ability to draw.
and in 2022 I kinda went fuck this shit mode and cared a bit less (when it had got to the point that I even listened to indie pop to be 'cool' lol (it's good but not entirely my type of music) even tho I kept this to myself)
but it also was because some other factors,
tbh I have no idea what happended and why exactly but now I enjoy my art and feel way better now
(the whole problem was more than that but idk how to explain it, it's confusing
)OK IF YOU'VE READ IT WHOLE THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
IT WAS KINDA RANDOM, I CRINED AND MY PHONE IS LAGGY NOWJun 9, 2022
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My gosh same!!! I had similar experiences at the end of 2020, hence why I deleted any Social Media (except for YouTube) and cut down Phone time to 1h a day for a year.
I quickly drew what I wanted, pulled inspiration from books and old masters again and it’s been really healthy for me!
Still got a ton of lows and I feel the impact of returning to social media again. But I think it was a bad but important phase to live through!!!
I quickly drew what I wanted, pulled inspiration from books and old masters again and it’s been really healthy for me!
Still got a ton of lows and I feel the impact of returning to social media again. But I think it was a bad but important phase to live through!!!
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