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(edit:: im not in distress anymore so plsplspls dont worry!! all of the kindness and cats ive recieved have made me feel a lot better abt this situation :(( thank you all so much!3££:£: i love you silly billies.....)hi besties. actual serious bad news. im considering calling the police?
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(tw: abuse discussions, manipulation 100%, me being paranoid, perhaps mention of r4pe (not sure yet..), eating disorder-esque talk etc, not rlly sure cus this is a bit of a complaint ahaha)
so its about my oldest sister (woaaah big shocker the one who sucked before still fuckin sucks)
so lets set the scene: My mother and I cook stuff, I make myself a fish-finger sandwich for dinner, i have been worrying abt my weight and diet all day and have been paranoid my 'fate' is my death. my mother makes my sister jacket potato with cheese n beans. sister doesn't even look up from her phone, she's watching random casual tiktoks, bit rude but whatever ig. my mum eats shreddies and she and i make casual conversation when a diet video comes up on my sisters phone. she does not use headphones, everyone can hear it. i leave it for a moment cos maybe she'll turn it over? no. its rating the worst diets, it says NOTHING about gut health in the video, keep in mind. i ask 'could you perhaps not watch diet stuff rn' in my usual ass 'am-i-too-quiet-?-' voice and then my mum who i've been talking to abt my weight issues then is like 'yeah please maybe milli that would be nice oi innit ladss ooiii' and so my sister politely says 'oh okay :3 i understand, crimson that ur having some body troubles :3 i am a good older sister so i will save it and come back for this video after din--' no she says 'its GUT diets for my GUT?! am i not even allowed to watch this?!? i might have bowel whatever!!3! fuck you im watching it!!' and so there i go
'mum cooked you food and ur just watching tiktok???? girl?????? literally wtf r u on????!!!!' (by this point its kinda a shouting match, brought on by milli and the only way to make her hear is to scream over her and luckily i have SITUATIONAL MUTISM :DDD so no one knows how loud i can yell!!!) so i yell 'MUM MADE YOU DINNER AND YOU'RE JUST WATCHING TIKTOKS?????' to which she gets angry at and is like 'CAN I NOT WATCH TIKTOK ANYMORE???' gorl there is this lovely fancy word known as 'respect' we like to use in this house :3
so then considering that this is the same girl who said that she would take my r4ped sisters baby if she was pregnant (ignored abortion option til i mentioned it btw. live in uk, legal here) i was like 'yeah this bitch is hopeless' and fucked off to which she started yelling more and i scream 'shut the fuck up!!!' from the top of the stairs cos she starts??? slandering my MOTHER??????? and then starts saying sister 3 is lazy and doesnt do anything (inaccurate - she works EVERYDAY at tearoom), insults me for not leaving my room (i have severe social issues, im autistic and am slowly getting myself used to social environments again) and then i shut my door and cant hear from there only a 'you just told me to move out!!' from my sister.
and i started to believe maybe my mum understood that milli has been abusive this entire time, that everytime she called sister 2 'ana' or sister 3 'fat', it was genuine hate and not just sister activities. i messaged mum telling her i love her and to for the love of god not fall for the slander milli said abt her parenting. the same girl who abused so many people in her life is insulting, including her 3 younger siblings is insulting my mums parenting????
and then i get a message from my mum.
she apologised for how she dealt with the situation. to my sister.
my sister who started yelling and shouting over a simple polite request. not even the first time. i once asked her non-verbally to stop being so noisy during moana and she yelled at me to 'go to my room'. shes weird your honour.
so to her message i say
'mum no wtf, dont apologise, you literally asked one request cos u kno i got body issues !!' and she starts defending milli. milli is 21. she is an adult woman living at home. my mum then says
'Whichever way I deal with someone will say I’m wrong. I’m going to talk it through with dad to work it out'
she completely manipulated my mother. my mother thinks shes wrong. my mother thinks shes the villain when my sister starts screaming. she said that in response to me saying 'mum what you just described (she said 'she attacks us all when isolated') is a form of abuse'.
i cant fucking believe it.
i thought my mum was starting to understand
shes not
she doesnt even know that we all think milli will kill us when shes angry. i have never felt such anger and frustration at knowing my mother is just a puppet for my sister. i want milli to stay away from my family
she's not part of my family, shes not part of my sisters family
i called the police one time before on her but my mum deescalated it. i know i shouldnt call the cops on 'yeah she yells a bit :3 and yeah shes manipulative' but man tf else am i supposed to do??? is there genuinely anything i can do to stop her from damaging my family any further??
im sorry for venting if you see this. i need help and i dont know where to find it. my only hope is in fate at the moment and i dont know how to let fate guide meAug 14, 2023
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i'm so so so sorry you have to go through this :( ofc i can't be of much help, all i can think of is trying to explain everything to your mom with the help of your sisters (and/or dad?) if they're willing and it's possible, it might help, but sadly idk about the whole situation. And calling the police would be a reasonable if she gets violent. i just hope things get better. stay as safe as u can :(
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Holy shit I'm so sorry you have to go through all that, she sounds horrible. I hope you'll all be able to get out of tht situation, I hope she moves out and leaves the rest of you alone because wtf
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