SorryI know that not everyone would like to see this but I'm trying to get through this period.
1st September my husband dropped this : " I'm leaving "
2nd September we signed documents and 16th October this document will be valid and we will be EXes.
I'm burnt out
I can't draw frequently and my skills now are dull
I'm exhausted
4rd September I ran away from that flat where we live for 9 years bare foot in Crocs and know where? Even more North. Here is no sun from October till summer. And polar day at summer. I hate polar days to be honest! But I couldn't bare hear whining my dogs and that reality where only relative I had was him. No contacts in real life. He isolated me even from my mum! ( she is also rlly bad human being but nevertheless!) He was saying that I'm not loyal. Gaslighting that I'm whore...
I'm dead inside. I'm hollow...
I'm sad.
I'm sorry
If anyone have idea how to keep drawing in such brain exhaustion I will be grateful for helpSep 30, 2025
1st September my husband dropped this : " I'm leaving "
2nd September we signed documents and 16th October this document will be valid and we will be EXes.
I'm burnt out
I can't draw frequently and my skills now are dull
I'm exhausted
4rd September I ran away from that flat where we live for 9 years bare foot in Crocs and know where? Even more North. Here is no sun from October till summer. And polar day at summer. I hate polar days to be honest! But I couldn't bare hear whining my dogs and that reality where only relative I had was him. No contacts in real life. He isolated me even from my mum! ( she is also rlly bad human being but nevertheless!) He was saying that I'm not loyal. Gaslighting that I'm whore...
I'm dead inside. I'm hollow...
I'm sad.
I'm sorry
If anyone have idea how to keep drawing in such brain exhaustion I will be grateful for helpSep 30, 2025
Comments
Jesus crust... the thing sounds like a piece of shit. I know that isolated people have a hard time reconnecting. But there is always a chance. I have no solution or idea, but I know it can be overcome. Not that you should probably do that with your mom.
I would recommend securing important notes or receipts or mementoes. There is a chance that he will try to make your life miserable better save than sorry. But you didn't ask for me butting in, so I'm sorry.
I would say, if drawing is too hard, write. If writing is too taxing, doodle. I keep a lot of notebooks which I turn into doodle books for connecting ideas. It's just a random pen and an empty site. No pressure. And if it ends up being OK, I turn it into something bigger.
Stay safe
I would recommend securing important notes or receipts or mementoes. There is a chance that he will try to make your life miserable better save than sorry. But you didn't ask for me butting in, so I'm sorry.
I would say, if drawing is too hard, write. If writing is too taxing, doodle. I keep a lot of notebooks which I turn into doodle books for connecting ideas. It's just a random pen and an empty site. No pressure. And if it ends up being OK, I turn it into something bigger.
Stay safe
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•My dad got me this light therapy glasses for my bad sleep schedule and they might help with the polar days? They look pretty stupid but shine light on your eyes to help let your body know it’s morning and time to be awake
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•That’s so awful that happened/is happening. Don’t ever feel like you have to pretend to be okay online or in person. It’s good to talk about the way you feel! Not having any support system has to be terrible 
I really hope you find new connections with good people!
I really hope you find new connections with good people!•
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