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Ppl I know irl don’t follow me here so that’s why this isn’t even art related but what ever.
My childhood cat, of like 20+ years had to be put down yesterday. I’m super numb to it all and it feels,,,, not not real but,,,, it feels wrong?
Like we have been prepping for any and all situations the past few years of how it may happen, when it may happen, if there was a health issue we all prepped just incase.
This time I knew before she even got there.
But the first phone call they gave me hope that it wasn’t bad. He said she looked great. Then they did the X-rays.
I don’t even know how to cope with it, she was my best friend, I don’t know what to do with out her anymore, I don’t know who to talk to , I don’t know how to talk about it, she was such a constant in my life directly after a very traumatic childhood indecent. She was always there waiting at home, waiting for me to give her a kiss and greet her and sleep with her in my arms. She went through everything with me,
I feel wrong and weird and lonely. I feel silly for being so sad even tho it’s okay to be sad about this. 20+ years is a long time. It was just she always seemed to bounce back. And it all happened so fast. I didn’t even know waking up yesterday that my life would some how turn upside down and then again not change at all.
I don’t know what to do with myself. We have our other babies. And they are all wonderful but she was my soulmate I stg.
It doesn’t feel real, like I know she’s not here but maybe just maybe I’ll come upstairs and she give me her little kitty screams and start purring and idk. Idk.Jun 15, 2022
My childhood cat, of like 20+ years had to be put down yesterday. I’m super numb to it all and it feels,,,, not not real but,,,, it feels wrong?
Like we have been prepping for any and all situations the past few years of how it may happen, when it may happen, if there was a health issue we all prepped just incase.
This time I knew before she even got there.
But the first phone call they gave me hope that it wasn’t bad. He said she looked great. Then they did the X-rays.
I don’t even know how to cope with it, she was my best friend, I don’t know what to do with out her anymore, I don’t know who to talk to , I don’t know how to talk about it, she was such a constant in my life directly after a very traumatic childhood indecent. She was always there waiting at home, waiting for me to give her a kiss and greet her and sleep with her in my arms. She went through everything with me,
I feel wrong and weird and lonely. I feel silly for being so sad even tho it’s okay to be sad about this. 20+ years is a long time. It was just she always seemed to bounce back. And it all happened so fast. I didn’t even know waking up yesterday that my life would some how turn upside down and then again not change at all.
I don’t know what to do with myself. We have our other babies. And they are all wonderful but she was my soulmate I stg.
It doesn’t feel real, like I know she’s not here but maybe just maybe I’ll come upstairs and she give me her little kitty screams and start purring and idk. Idk.Jun 15, 2022
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I'm so sorry for your loss
I lost my baby too past year, he was 3 years old. I understand your pain
maybe this can help you since it worked for me
create a little altar and light up a candle (can be any candle, mine was a little red candle ) and tell her goodbye, talk with her, let yourself cry, make her promises, etc. stay there as much as you want
I did it during night so no one could disturb me
I hope this helps and I send you love and hugs
I lost my baby too past year, he was 3 years old. I understand your pain
maybe this can help you since it worked for me
create a little altar and light up a candle (can be any candle, mine was a little red candle ) and tell her goodbye, talk with her, let yourself cry, make her promises, etc. stay there as much as you want
I did it during night so no one could disturb me
I hope this helps and I send you love and hugs
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