@wawee_timothee's post on Artfol
CLOWNTOWN NEWS Friday, February 16 2024
8:46 PM EST
Man I wanted to draw tonight but my ipad DEAD I forgot to plug in the charger so now all yall getting is me talking nonsense
UNSOLICITED ADVICE Let me tell you a thing about HOW I DO THE DRAW
Always got a reference on hand, which I follow loosely before interpreting as my own. It's like the spark to the flame I need, yano. I'm not into the "let's make original stuff" bs. I'm not that great. I'm not gonna pretend I am. Reference and cheat codes all the way. To even get into the mood to draw, my daily routine follows:• Wake up
• Go to work then go home
• Eat, shower
• Draw for an hr or smth while I digest my food
• Take a fat nap
• Wake up, eat, chat with my mom
• Draw again while digesting
• Sleep again
Yall notice I take a lot of naps, eat as much as I can, and I also stay hydrated. Sometimes, I look outside the window and judge the weather for being awful to me.
WHAT DO I THINK OF WHILE I DRAW???When thinking of drawing, I have a W mindset because I'm not a L.
I tell myself, "I'm a professional!" (I'm not) "and I do professional looking stuff!" (I don't) "Professionals do this drawing technique and I can do it too" (I can't).
So you see! It's all about pretending like I know what I'm doing. When I finish the thing, I look at it with a professional eye afterwards and boy does it look like garbage every time but that's not gonna stop me because I (a professional) learn from my (professional) advice to not do the thing again later and do something else.
Can't finish a drawing? That's fine! I just don't then and that's it! I don't owe anyone a damn thing so I don't feel guilty like some other apologists I see who are sorry for being gone living life and not having an online presence. See, here's the thing, unless someone's paying me via commission to draw, then I don't have to be sorry for trying to keep myself off the streets and putting food on the table to allow me to keep drawing. I didn't draw for 2 yrs straight and some years longer because yano, when I do pick it up again, it's not so bad either cuz I just gotta get right into it. No apology for time wasted, no nonsense of "If I drew more before, I would be better now." Nah man. I'm as good as I'll get now, and future-me is gonna get as better as they can be wherever they're at. Not improving? It's cuz I'm not doing anything different, and I'm in a comfortable area of doing the same thing I like to do even if it's not great. If you're reading this and you think, "I just can't get better no matter how hard I try!" Well, you're trying too hard buddy, that's the problem. Don't try. Just do. Don't have "feelings" about your art if it's just going to make you feel bad, you're just bullying yourself for no reason. You want to have a style? Actually study my guy. Don't follow your own style if it's miserable. Get a new brush or smth, learn color theory, learn anatomy. Always just do something new without limiting yourself with ego feelings of not being as good as you thought. You're only as good as you allow yourself to be, and if you like where you're at, awesome. You don't like that? Use your critical thinking skills.THIS HAS BEEN A PSA.
DAILY LIFE If you follow my lore, I mention my boss sometimes, who I play fps games with and who also laughs at me when I get ego checked at work. Another thing that happens between us is that he seems to make sure I receive a "Good Job" compliment at least once or twice the shift. Idk what's up with that because he tries to get creative sometimes. Also, I don't see him saying the same shit to the other people in our belt. I'm sus of favoritism, which honestly, I dont mind. You know I'm always passing those performance quality audits lmao. Today, he went up to me and said, "You're a good sniper AND you can insert work task here, that's a win!"
"Thanks, it's called competence."
Lmao he goes, "Yeah, that seems hard to come by these days."
My job requires me to utilize all my OCD and just get into the stim of organizing shit like I'm playing tetris, and I love tetris yall
Other days, he just compliments me when I'm not expecting it (I never expect it), and it takes me a hot minute.
"Praise???" Just to confirm.
"Yeah, you get praise." He confirms.
Cool. "I accept."Feb 17, 2024
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I needed the "I'm as good as I'll get now, and future-me is gonna get better as they can be" part. Also wtf is your job
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